Then the day comes unwanted, violent, and world shattering, when we are forced from fetal Utopia into a chaos of bright lights, beings other than Mother, and detachment from security into endless space. Hands slapping us into vocalizing our horror are delighted when we utter our first scream.
Daughter #3 cautiously observes all things new.
Childhood is long and humiliating. We can't wait until we are a grownup. We fall down and cry; we run away from home and are spanked; we do things to explore our boundaries and have mixed success. We chew and swallow food that we abhor. We attend school and graduate school and begin adulthood.
I play Miss Muffet at a May Day celebration.
Adulthood is busy and needs to be a field of competition; competition for paying your way with jobs and careers; competition for finding happiness in a life companion and children to carry on; and fulfilling all the personal dreams of achievement featured on our personal bucket list. For some it is an outer crust, a show of wealth, for some it is a high hat of personal importance, for some it is a sensory composition of what is was to live.
As a grownup, I always felt fulfilled by gardening.
Having sat upon our self-specialized seat, we reach the narrowing lane of life where we sense the ride may soon be over. A sense of losing all we built to our design begins to enter our thoughts and we reflect on all the people in our past who no longer live. What did life mean? Was it just a challenge? Did we do it right? Were we really born to just achieve wealth, status, or fame?
No personal goal achievement ever felt as good as participating in Nature.
I conclude for me that the only time is now and that every now has to be appreciated, no matter what your status in the world, which after all is just applause for the soon-extinguished ego. I conclude for me that appreciation of this beautiful world and its inhabitants is the only value that outlives life. It is the ultimate thanks for the ultimate experience and adds to a collective living choir of never-ending praise.
My mother marveled at everything celestial and I do too.