My rear view is nowhere near this orderly now.
Depressing as this is, there is one thing not considered in all of this: beginnings. Currently science says that beginning (as in the big bang) can come from nothing. This defies human logic and causes tremendous problems of symmetry, or balance. No rising from the ashes and going on to repeat the process. No symmetry. I feature that beginnings come from unknown endings, at least that is my natural supposition since I'm preparing for a period of permanent disorder (old age).
These roses had their day, shattered and fell to the ground (entropy).
But new roses will be around next year to do the same.
I have always shied away from "hard" science, otherwise known as physics, because I feared it was difficult enough to bring down my grades and cause entropy of my self esteem. So in high school I signed up for physics and dropped it for study hall out of panic. Another girl seized the opportunity and begged to purchase my used and therefore cheap textbook for the price I paid. Later on, I changed my mind and decided to return to physics. When I asked to buy back my book, the other girl said "No," and I was forced to pay for a new text book which I could ill afford. The irony of all this: the girl who found my book such a bargain was a millionaire's daughter who grew up on a big southern plantation. I, on the other hand, was abandoned by my father and supported by my unemployed mother. Everyone knew this. In that moment I felt first hand the cruelty and apathy of the "haves" in this world. And the concept of entropy here: used book (order), selling the book in a moment of weakness (beginning disorder) having to buy more expensive book (0 minus 10 on the order scale). Science rules.
Science rules and is spectacularly beautiful!